eaglesnest

Before considering serious planning to move my little family, I had a lot of clearing away of emotional & mental debris. I knew that I could not just GO. There were steps to getting ready to prepare. I know it sounds like excuses & stalling techniques, but it really was necessary.

Having already gotten divorced after a 10 year marriage & then dealing with the devastating break-up of the beautiful relationship I managed to be blessed with after that, I was looking at a huge pile of emotional baggage that had only kept me in this current non-relationship far longer than was right.

Adding a child to the mix was both a heavy factor in my need to leave and a detractor to actualizing the action of leaving. Many months, year plus of months, of only co-parenting with the man who I was not involved with in any relationship beyond being our son’s parents was taking a toll. Reminders of how it had been with my fax really pushed me over the edge. I had eventually forced the cards in that strained, miserable co-parenting co-habiting farce. I knew I needed to do that again. I wanted it to go better this time.

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