eaglesnest

A newer friend & I have been discussing work & fulfillment and many other parts of the Buddhist notion of Right Living. I just began working again Sunday & he started a new job today. We are both attempting to align what we do for monetary renumeration and what fulfills us spiritually.

For the first decade of my adult life, I did not work outside the home. I was married to a Union electrician & stayed home with 3 children. I grew an organic garden, “farmed” worms, made all natural soap, put up preserves, made pasta from scratch & out of wild greens and tended to the time consuming needs of three little girls and a home. I choose a career that was BOTH in line with my spiritual fulfillment and was selling out, doing anything for money or more precisely to have money w/o the usual requirements of a paying job.

I allowed myself to become a prisoner of my job. When I got divorced, I had no job skills, no work background. I was not in a great spot to be able to care for myself financially. Life’s unusual twists & turns provided me with two ghostwriting gigs & then a move across country to my true home town. {I’m hoping you figured out that was Reston}

I was blessed in a few ways. The condo was my then boyfriend’s parents’ so we didn’t have to fill out anything. I got a job in an amazing way (story later) & things were honky dory. Fast forward from that fall to the next summer when we decided to move back to CA. Apartment hunting was determined by our dog’s acceptance. I was the co-applicant, but J had the real job & paycheck. All was well. Fast forward again, we are no longer together. After the famous train trip & brief respite in Reston, I returned to San Diego. Roommate situation bounced a bit before I landed where I currently am sitting. But, I was only a roommate, never a renter candidate.

Fast forward to NOW — oh hell’s bells. I haven’t been “working” in oh a year or so. Not “real work”. There are no W2s, no steady checks shown in my bank account balance. NADA ZILCH ZIPPO I am back where I was over a decade ago when I was divorced and career-wise a nothing.

Funny thing (ironic AND haha) I have secured employments, enough of them in fact to make a VERY pretty penny.

• Problem 1 — the main income won’t begin till mid-July (full time nanny gig again - do what you do well, plus it works with the Right Living - I help a child be happy & healthy etc).
  
• Problem 2 - almost all the other work is freelance or commissioned work and therefore no W2s.
  
• Problem 3 - last month’s bank statement shows worse then ZERO. My son’s father did not work at all & we lived off cash form his tips & my stuff here & there.
  

So, if I fill out a renter application, they will reject me right out as I can not show any steady income over he past 6 months. Sah-qurew me. If I were to have until August 1st, I would have pay stubs, bank account records etc to satisfy the income requirements, then some. We NEED to be in a place June 1st for Mama C & lil K.

Due to taxes & stimulus checks & timing of other financings, I do/will have in hand enough for deposit and up to 2 months of rent. If we can work with a home owner who will see where I am and why I am there, I can pay those 2 months plus to walk in the door.

Some wonderful person will see two single mothers working as hard as possible to create a good life for their sons, and understand why I am monetarily at a loss for the moment & ONLY the moment, we will be good. We have to be good with someone.

There WILL be a homeowner who was raised by a single mother and he will accept us in her honour. It will come to pass in a house with a yard and we will be safe & happy.

The balance will be found.

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