eaglesnest

Managed to connect with a potential new client, work on a report due tomorrow, write copy & publish another website for my new careers & fish for a paying job from a volunteer position today - as well as ride roller coasters at Legoland with my son & his father. Felt like I was gathering materials to construct a new nest.

Somewhere I have not only picked up steam, but something similar to confidence that I had not worn as easily before. It has grown from the little exercise of identifying myself as an editor as per db’s instructions. I have now committed to that on the web .

Beyond that I have even branched out & developed a website for the other stuff - the side of me that has been mostly in the hush hush, sequestered away in the shadows unable to thrive. By publishing this site , by linking it here , by a little e-mail to my friends I have come out of the closet.

I am a healer, a shaman. Many of my closest friends, my true family are aware of this. They support, encourage, assist me in this rather large part of who I truly am. I have never been quite sure why I am timid about calling myself by those titles.

It is much as not only referring to myself as an editor, but backing that up with “My starting rate is $60.” If I refer to myself as a healer, I need to back it up. But more than that.

I say “I am the biggest skeptic, for I have seen the truth.” I have walked with saints, messiahs, seen spirits, — see? even here I stopped typing, and started to edit, to filter, to say “ohoh, they are going to think you are a loon, judge you as less because of this.” Here is one why.

Upside of where I live, of who I know is that they do NOT see these “claims” as odd, indeed they have been nagging me, just as db does about editing, to DO soemthing about this, to craft a career out of my innate talents. It is with that familial support & love I can emerge from the darkness and do the daring & bold step of posting a website .

I can not be complete if I do not let my spirituality thrive. As I gather the building components of my new life, as I reclaim my identity & strengthen my self I need to be truthful and embrace every aspect of my true nature.

Twigs to form the foundation, twine to weave it together & twilight to surround the little nest with magic.

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